INSOMNIA

Trying to sleep but my eyes open wide  With voices whispering from every side  Battles in my mind and nowhere to hide  a futile resistance against the rising tide Thought after thought taunting my soul  As this constant barrage takes its toll  Eating away slowly now a gaping hole  My mind going crazy and out of control  I search frantically and fail in despair  For something elusive which was always there  Something tossed away without a careits prolonged absence I can no longer bear Peace of mind I no longer possess,  A nightmarish life I must confess  So much hardships and so much stress  A constant companion is pain and distress Tossing and turning all night long miserable and sad -   everything is wrong what is life? and where do I belong? Millions of questions and all answers gone  My heart is riddled with grief and sorrow  And with these thoughts my tears flow  All hope lost my heart sinks low  Without a care what happens tomorrow Finely balanced on the edge of a knife  I see the stranger who lives my life  an emotionless tyrant causing havoc and strife  A corrupted soul where ignorance is rife  My whole world is hypocrisy and lies  And no more goodness do I recognise  Everything I possess I begin to despise  And this voice inside, I hear its cries Of a promise made before the days of old  In a meeting with my lord - I am told  That forever in my heart, tawheed I would hold  A promise broken for a miserable price sold  This murmuring voice so long ignored  To delay it further, I can not afford So this mission of truth, I have taken aboard With conviction my shield and truth my sword  An uphill struggle an eternal fight Battle-lines drawn between wrong and right Returning to my lord, I head for the light Submerged in Salah is my only respite  Lifting my hands to my lord I pray'let ignorance go and let faith stay  Through Your mercy show me the way  Give me guidance so that I can obey'  With an open heart I read the QuranI discover my Creator's will and planWord of my Lord, a guidance for manMissing pieces restored now I am one  Content and happy, no more tears to weepContent and happy, I fall asleepPeace and happiness with faith running deepPeace and happiness - forever to keep Zahid Bin Ghulam